I do have pictures. A lot of em actually just that its just not the right time to post them up. A lot has happened in just a short span of 4 days. 4 days.

Honestly, I feel alone. I'm AM standing alone. Cos all this while, things that looked so good just suddenly revealed its true self. Things twist into something else so suddenly. I never even suspected anything. No. Not even one bit. I never guessed this would happen. And I thought things were gonna get better now, after the holidays.

4 days and just 4 major events.

And then I realise, everyone is just pretending.
Just like I'm pretending.
This hit me soooooo baaaad.

It seriously hurts.
The feeling of betrayal.

And doesnt anyone knw that its seriously rude to not tell someone a secret just after saying this phrase 'You knw what!'

I've been crying for 4 days.
4 days and everybody's just having fun pretending.

The world is like a huge masquerade ball.
Everybody's wearing masks.
Hiding their true self.
And when its all over, everyone takes off their masks and reveal their naked faces.
And then you think to yourself, I never thought he/she was like that.

Because 4 days ago, I was happy.
I was sooo happy and grateful for the things I have.
And then everything just fell apart.

I'm so sick of crying.
I'm so sick of betrayers.
I'm so sick of having nothing to be proud of.
I'm so sick, infected with where I live.
I'm so sick of being an in between person.
I'm so sick of trying and trying and trying.

4 days.
Were you having fun?