Your rose wilted.
So I threw it away.
I hope youre angry.



The feeling is not rly there anymore.
Just anger, I guess.
Maybe jealousy comes along with it.
Because I never knew it would end this way.

And I thought of the ending in a rather different way.
Hmmm.

But now I guess I have a reason to be happy.
I have friends who can turn my mood around by just seeing them flashing a wide smile.
I have friends who listen to me whine and cry about all things in life that are pulling me down.
I have friends who cry for me when I get hurt.

I have a family that loves me and even though they might get in the way sometimes, I knw its because they care. And its because they dont want me to get hurt.

HOHO, POSITIVE THINKING! (it works!)

Okay, I seriously want to thank all the people who showed concern and care for me as I'm having problems with my health now (Gee, this sounds serious.) I'm having problems breathing properly and I hyperventilate very suddenly and it freaks out most people like Chingmay (She cried. I AM SO SORRY.) Tanya, John, Sam, Elvina, Rachel & Allen!

I alrdy hyperventilated like twice.

Yeah, the first one was in school in front of Chingmay (I AM SO SUPER SRY!)

The second time was yesterday night.
And it was because I was thinking abt someone. And I just started to breathe heavily and so I flipped out my phone and my hands were shaking like crazy and called Chingmay. I am so sorry I freaked you out last night and made you cry! At first, I was just about to cry and then I couldnt breathe?

Me : Chingmay. I cannot. Chingmay I cannot take it. Anymore. (HYPERVENTILATES!!! HEE)

C : Nisa stop it! Stop! Go get your medicine now. Go tell your mum. Tell. Eat your medicine!

I hung up and she cried.
I AM SO SORRY OKAY.

If this goes on, you guys have to be there okay and get used to it or smth.
Gee, I hope I dont die.