My right hand hurts like fuck. OH WELL. Good news, well to me at least. I HAD 79 HITS YESTERDAY! Oh what a pretty day.

You knw. What's the point of letting all my thoughts and everything right here when there are bound to be people who get affected by it. Sheesh. Everyone is so sensitive right now. And everybody suddenly wants photoshop now. Oh why oh why. Erm. I dont rly have anything much to say because I cant think of anything.

Oh oh! Chingmay changed her shampoo :(
She donts smell like she used to smell anymores and I donts like that. Suhaimy Chingmay, better change back to your previous shampoo.

Bang. I miss many many people like fuck now.
I miss boo.
Like crazy. When was the last time I saw boo zomfg.
And why is everyone alrdy offline so early :(

No one to entertain meeeeeeee. :(
I'll go read some Harry Potter or smth.

"Maybe if my heart stops beating, it wont hurt this much." - Never Let This Go by Paramore.

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JOHN CHANG XIANG JUN OWES ME $12.90!!!!!!!!1111
thankyouverymuch.

Jam jam jam. Followed John and Sam to Potong Pasir to jam jam jam.
Jelly jelly jam jam.
I wanna post pictures but I swear Blogger fuckn hates me.
Well, for the Haunted House pictures, go to Sam's blog (:


This is Joel and Nick.
Hello.


This is John, The Puki Monster.
Hoho. Candid!




John is smoking hot I swear.
He's glasses fogged up when he was playing.
Whee~






Playing each other's instruments.

John and his stupid birdface.
Pfffft.


With Mengfei's shades.
I think they were playing Bat Country.

Aye cookie monster. Tsk ah.








Me and Mengfei just sat behind the keyboard and talked abt random stuff like how Sam's hair doesnt move when he headbangs and how I think the bassist is quite cute. shhh.
It was a good practice. They sounded great and I must say that I'm really happy to be friends with such a great band with great people. Go Third Strike, you guys must knw that I support you guys and all the best for your next gig and I knw you guys can and will make it!

There's sch tmr.
There's SS CT tmr.
Mati.
:(

Btw Sam has a friend.
A pretty new friend.
Gorgeous I say.
Wowee.

I told Kenneth to be my boyfriend and we could do Chem Lab experiments together! But he dont want! How!

Who to fall in love with now?!

I want to fall in love sey.

:D

I am lazy.
Lazy to update.
Go read Sam's blog for pictures and stuff.
:)

Today was fun (:

Stop making my heart beat faster than it should be.
Stop making me cry for nothing.
Stop making me gasp for air as I try to control myself.
Stop making me breathe faster then I should be.

I seriously cannot take it anymore.

WHY IS EVERYONE FUCKN fuck.

AND NO.
IM NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR.

Just people who give me shit just like my brother.

I am running out of pictures to post!

No pictures = Plain boring words = MUNDANE BLOG :O!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Hoho. I'll be going around to take pictures tomorohhhh with Chang Sam & MF!
YAYE. Mummyyyyyyyyy. I duwan go haunted house sial.

But abang Sam promised me Botanical Gardens after that. BAH. SO HOW?

Go or dont go.

:(

Hoho.
I am having SERIOUS doubts.
Doubt doubt doubt.
OH WHO GIVES A FUCK.
Im contented.
Whatever.

I am stuck at home and I am eating the Hershey's bar Jie En gave me.
I think I'm going out with Mel later. She thought I was kidding
abuot hyperventilating and stuff. Bong.

YOU KNW WHAT.

I SERIOUSLY EFFING LOVE MY BEST FRIENDS.
And my abang Sam just textd me saying we're not going to Istana Woodneuk
anymore.
We're going to the Red House which he claims is RLY HAUNTED.

WTF.

He said dont worry Abang is here.

MEH.
HOW DID THE PLAN FOR A LITTLE PICNIC AT BOTANICAL GARDENS TURN OUT TO
BE A TRIP TO SOME RANDOM HAUNTED HOUSE SIAL.


Chang Xiang Jun is going too and I think MF.

ALL I WANT IS TO TAKE PRETTY PICTURES WITH DADDY'S SLR. Ohgawd.

Oh oh! May is not coming cos she has campcraft wtf. :(


Haha!
WTF!
Abang. Looking. Uhm. Retarded. I have no idea what he was doing.
Chang with May's shawl.
So gay. so gay.
Hello pretty! :D
Ohkay. Time to watch the Simpsons.
Omg, Scary Movie 4 is zomfg so effing lame.

OH I LOVE CHINGMAY MUCHOMUCHOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXXO.



I hyperv-d in school again. Wtf. I think I seriously need medical help or smth like that. An asthma inhaler would be quite cool too yo. Hoho!

Today was great I guess. Hyperv-d during recess. I'd like to thank Joey Su Lammy and Elvina for like helping me and the SJAB people like Sotong! English test was fine I guess. Played with Allen's hair since he was sitting in front of me. Many people were touching Eeyore today since I brought him to school. Fuck, my donkey is so popular and people love to touch his you-knw-where. (:


After that mmm. Went to Coffee Bean with my abang Sam. Random stuff we talked about and had a tissue fight. Puki, you flicked me TWICE sial.

Sam : *takes act cute picture with camera phone*
*looks at the picture and says*

*GASPS*

IM A CAMWHORE!

*and then giggles like a bimbo*

Suhaimy Chingmay!
Why you go watch Juno?!@!@!@

Sial.

Your rose wilted.
So I threw it away.
I hope youre angry.



The feeling is not rly there anymore.
Just anger, I guess.
Maybe jealousy comes along with it.
Because I never knew it would end this way.

And I thought of the ending in a rather different way.
Hmmm.

But now I guess I have a reason to be happy.
I have friends who can turn my mood around by just seeing them flashing a wide smile.
I have friends who listen to me whine and cry about all things in life that are pulling me down.
I have friends who cry for me when I get hurt.

I have a family that loves me and even though they might get in the way sometimes, I knw its because they care. And its because they dont want me to get hurt.

HOHO, POSITIVE THINKING! (it works!)

Okay, I seriously want to thank all the people who showed concern and care for me as I'm having problems with my health now (Gee, this sounds serious.) I'm having problems breathing properly and I hyperventilate very suddenly and it freaks out most people like Chingmay (She cried. I AM SO SORRY.) Tanya, John, Sam, Elvina, Rachel & Allen!

I alrdy hyperventilated like twice.

Yeah, the first one was in school in front of Chingmay (I AM SO SUPER SRY!)

The second time was yesterday night.
And it was because I was thinking abt someone. And I just started to breathe heavily and so I flipped out my phone and my hands were shaking like crazy and called Chingmay. I am so sorry I freaked you out last night and made you cry! At first, I was just about to cry and then I couldnt breathe?

Me : Chingmay. I cannot. Chingmay I cannot take it. Anymore. (HYPERVENTILATES!!! HEE)

C : Nisa stop it! Stop! Go get your medicine now. Go tell your mum. Tell. Eat your medicine!

I hung up and she cried.
I AM SO SORRY OKAY.

If this goes on, you guys have to be there okay and get used to it or smth.
Gee, I hope I dont die.

I just hyperventilated again.
For those whom I freaked out.

So super sorry.

:)

I hyperventilated in sch today.
All I rmb was it was in front of Chingmay and 3E5 was walking by.

My chest is painful.
My heart is painful.

I should just die of breathlessness.

You knw what.

IM EFFING SICK OF PRETENDING.

I pretend.

To be okay.

Guess what.

Am not.

While you people have a pretty nice day smelling the flowers and grinning to the sky, I pretended to be happy and fine and dandy and I seemingly look like I'm having the time of my life.

Guess what.

Am not.

I pretend.

For the sake of the people around me.

Okay, its time for me to listen to Flyleaf and chant 'Jealousy is a blardy sin, bodoh' again and again and again.

Care to join?

Oh fuck off and have a nice day!

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I dont even knw who to trust anymore cos what you did rly made me lost trust in people of your species. :(

EDITED BIT:!



OH FUCK.
YOU'RE.
JUST.
LIKE.
CONOR.
CONOR.
CONOR.
CONOR!

I am so fucking slow.
Gawd.

FUCKFUCKFUCK.

Cannottt!
________________



NISAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
STOP IT.
SHUP SHUP SHUP.

Okay, I'm talking to myself now cos I've gotta slap myself outta this emo-zemo-nemo phase that I'm in mixed with a tad bit of jealousy?

NISA.
STOP BEING JEALOUS OF THINGS.
ITS SO FUCKING DUMBDUMB.

Roar. Alterego. Sheesh. Bah, I've yet to put Renie's Underoath CDs in my com. Fuck lazy. Now now. Even some Conor Eye Candy can't cheer me up for fuck's sake. And you knw how Conor or Zacky would cheer me uppy. I wanna dream again. But then, dreams are so fucking short and bong bong bong.

Its relieving to cut yourself but my penknives have all been confiscated by people. :(

Mummy, my back pain.

NISAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
STOP BEING BAD INFLUENCE.
WHDDYA DOING?!!?

Okay, fine fine fine.

Nisa, stop talking cock and go cry now because fated is playing.

Bong.

Yes I see it.
WHY IS IT SO COMMONLY USED ALL OF A SUDDEN.
BONGZ.

I cannottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
Orh orh.

JEALOUSY IS STILL A SIN.
JEALOUSY IS STILL A SIN.
JEALOUSY IS STILL A SIN.
JEALOUSY IS STILL A SIN.
JEALOUSY IS STILL A SIN.

CHANT WITH ME.

After smelly Arabic class, went to Town with Chingmay, John, Sam and Mengfei!
To emm.

Take pictures with Daddy's cam!
And to buy Sam's guitar (later named Bloody Mary and he only brought it home today~ hoho)






















































Not nice lah!

Bong.

:(

Failed attempt.